Monday, November 27, 2006
here i am.
sitting alone at 12:09 am Singapore Time.
This is not a message to be taken lightly.
We are not sinking into Red zone.
Mother was asking how come we don't talk much in the past week.
I answered her .
She's surprised.
" Aren't you supposed to miss each other even more when she s in Korea?"
"How come it seems both of you can't be bothered like that?"
I was defensive. I snapped back " She's not the one. I've just been too busy a workaholic. "
So it is , or is it not?
Not asking. I know the answer.
I've been wondering what's going on too.
We both need a bit of space right now to think through our thoughts.
I've settled on mine. And I'm not rushing you to settle yours.
I've decided that I love my family too.
I learnt today just how adorable my family is.
I learnt today that I am no longer that insolent child who wanted to go to Australia just so I can get away from home and live on my home.
I learnt today, that I am growing my roots slowly and surely into the ground I live on,
The soil of which I have grown from.
The ambitious young man who dreamed big dreams of big cars and big house and big everything else,
is now a realistic young man who wants to do the best he can to be the best he can
but realises the dreams of scholarly grandeur is almost impossible this point onwards.
I smiled. that's the first smile in 48 hours.
the last time i frowned so long was those dark dark 48 hours when my rights were read to me.
I know people read this. but i just want to share some thoughts so yeah,
its not like i am cussing about some poor guy who is just pouring his innocent woes out.
you know the john mayer song? daughters?
This is one message to any chap who might be reading this , by will or accident.
Sons, be good to your fathers .
Sons will love like you do.
Sons become lovers who turn into fathers
So father be good to your sons too.
I want to be a good father.
To teach my son all the good Dad has thought me.
To honour him.
To honour my son's mother to.
Just a thought, and no
It's not a proposal.
Not yet.
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musicraze winks
at |8:16 AM|
